essentially, i just don’t like repeating myself. nor do i enjoy feeling like I’m at the liberty of my emotions. if i say, out loud, that i care for you or verbally communicate how much you mean to me, I’m allowing myself to be emotionally vulnerable and I can no longer hide from my feelings or hide them from my significant other. that bothers me.
I can attribute physical affections to anything (especially sexual attraction). there’s not necessarily the risk of desired commitment or the assumption of romantic feeling, if i only lavish someone w physical affection.
i enjoy the gray area.